Go ahead, ask my high school Biology teacher, Magda.
“You have missed 54 biology classes this year, Michele, and you still got an A. I can’t explain you!” – she told me once.
The very arrogant 16 year old me replied:
“It’s simple. Your classes are not necessary.”.
Which was true.
All I needed to pass biology in school was to memorize a bunch of complicated names the night before the tests and it really didn’t matter if I would forget them within a week, which I actually wouldn’t, considering I was young and my brain was like a brand new hard drive.
It was the same for every subject.
I have always loved learning and books and to this day I repeat that I wish I had a job where I was just paid to learn. I was excited about University and classrooms I had seen in movies like “The Mirror Had Two Faces” where people were learning about things they were actually interested in. Which, to me, was not Biology.
In those rare days when I did go to school, I would spend the whole time doodling. I once tried to pay attention to class but I noticed the pace was so slow – not because I was a genius but because the other kids were also not paying attention so the teacher would go over the same point like 10 times in a row – it gave me headaches. Anxiety attacks. It felt like a waste of time. I knew I could study that in 15 minutes, rather than a whole period.
I was bored at school.
I had learned to read when I was 3 and by the time I made it to first grade, all I did was help the teacher teach the other kids.
I would read things slowly so my classmates wouldn’t feel bad about themselves and I would ask the teacher questions I already knew the answers to just because I didn’t think she had explained it well enough for the kids who were learning that for the first time. ( Arrogance. I am aware.)
They wanted me to skip 2nd and 3rd grade but my mom was worried the other kids in my class would be so much older than me I wouldn’t fit in.
So, I never skipped a grade. I just kept going. And, with time… I lost interest. In high school I even got a ton of Bs! I didn’t have any copybooks or notes. Again, I didn’t feel like they were necessary considering I could just read about the class in books – which I read for the tests but not for the finals as a way of feeling SOME excitement in school. There never was. I liked to read and learn. Except, by myself. At my own pace. So, I always knew the answers.
At one point, our English teacher quit testing me. I would write the tests for the class. English was something I was always interested in learning but could never afford to take classes, like the other kids did. So, I just grabbed a book and taught myself. I would get an 8.5 out of 9 on my IELTS interview later in life. The .5 that I missed was basically the arrogance.
“Don’t worry, what I think of you will not interfere with your grade” – the IELTS lady said.
There is arrogance in my speech. I can clearly see that. I also happen to know that that’s not a very nice quality. But right now, I think it’s necessary for a few reasons:
- If I choose to homeschool I will have to stand my ground. People will tell me I’m wrong for reasons they don’t even understand and I will need to get back at them with the arrogance of someone who knows what they are doing, otherwise they will not respect my decision. Often, people claim to be respectful about other’s choices regarding sexuality and religion and whatever… but TRY telling them you are homeschooling. Not a nice experience. I’ll need my arrogance.
- I was reading a book and I noticed a recurrent theme on instagram: ” Don’t worry, you can do this! You know enough to homeschool your kids!” My first thought was “Of course I can!” It never occurred to me that I didn’t! If I don’t recall something, I’ll just give it a read and it will come back to me! I am very able of learning by myself, from books and I want my children to develop that ability too. And that’s probably arrogant of me as well. But again, necessary.
So, from a learning perspective. Yes, this is one of the reasons I’d rather teach my kids at home. There are other aspects, both social and emotional, which I am not ignoring. They will be discussed with time.
See you next time!